Wednesday, February 25, 2009
the moon is shining upon us
guess what ? VI got 3rd ! hoorahh ! and this year , we get to represent KL ! :) whoopeeee ! after PMR , Yeah yeah ! we'll be representing wilayah in Perlis 2 weeks after PMR , oh em gee , I will become fat after 8 months of no training -.- but anyway , yeah :D im so excited , the last time VI represent Wilayah was in 2006 and I am glad to be in an AWESOME batch that break the history of VI once more :) we fought againts Sri Sentosa and I scored 2 tries :) hoorayy :D but anw , it was the teams hardwork that made the victory , not mine :)
VI 51 - 3 Sri Sentosa
and then , VI U-18 vs St.John for the 3rd placing . oh em gee It was damn tight match man ! like Finals of MSSMKL or something @_@ It was so damn tight until got a Sudden Match ! whoever teams try first , wins ! oh em gee ! VI was like cheering and st.john was like OHLALAALALA ! haha it was like a cheer faceoff ! hahaha , what an atmosphere , but , VI is AWESOME so , we won :) damn awesome , we we're jumping and even adagoo-ing in the middle of the field . we we're like singing glory glory . haha yeah . it's like we won a war or something :D conclusion of the story :)
VI is SO AWESOME in RUGBY :) and will be even AWESOME-ER in the future ;D
-CHUCKBASS-
10:21 PM Baby, we'll be forever.
Sunday, February 22, 2009
an inconvenience meeting ;)
soo , this morning I woke up at 6am -.- just now i have to send my mum to the airport because she's going to melbourne for 10 days o.o oh em geee -.- guess who did I met just now at the airport ? :D Zehan and Sis Sara at one time ! oh em gee ! :) I was damn shocked wehh , hahaha :B First I was like carrying some heavy bags of my mum's then suddenly I heard , Fauzan ! Fauzan ! I was like , " Who is calling my name at 6am in the MOURNing -.-" Then I turn around , guess who ? It was Zehan ! running towards me with her parents behind her -__________-" sanggup kau tinggalkan parents kau , hahahah . anyway , then we hugged and all . :) I was like omg ?! Zehan ? What are you doing here ? o.o Well , my parents invited me to come here ;) And I wanted to see you :D Awwwww<3 my mum and her mum are like bestfriends , so does my dad and her dad . so yeah :DD 1 hour before my mum leaves the flight , so my family and her family decided to hangout lah :D haha , we hangout at McD . oh em gee , damn mahal the breakfast that time -__-" hahaha , too bad I didn't bring my D90 T____T well , it was 6am in the morning , whaddya expect ? I mandi kerbau and all -_-" anyway , then I walked with Zehan ALLLLLLL Around the Airport , we even buat kecoh at the place where we can see the airplanes leaves ;) hahaha , damn AWESOME wehh :D Suddenly when I was walking , I saw Sis Sara ! :D Oh EM GEEE ! I can't believe my eyes that time , she was like this Hot Super Model that time -.- With LV luggage , shades , and all . hahaha , So I was like .
O.O !!!! Zehan ! it's Saraaa ! What ? Where ? O.O Thereee !!! OMG ! She looks like Paris Hilton . =_____________=" WTF ? Go and call her lah . She is with her boyfriend lahh -_- , malu kot . Then we go together lah , like we both are still together . haahaha ! Zehan,Zehan . hahaha xD
then we went there together lah , and Sara saw us and she was like .
Lil Brooooooooo ! Zehan ! :D Sissss Saraaaaaa !!! :B Saraaaaaaaaa :) *hugged* Why are you two lovebirds doing here ? o.o Lovebirds ? -________-" We're dating :B Here in the airport ? -_______- Whaddafuck ? (saying it damn loud , kalau boleh kuat lagi) She's just kidding , we're here to send my mum to melbourne . hahaha ;D Ohhhhh , Fuck you Zehan -.- , i thought you guys we're actually dating here. =_= Pfft . hahaha , :P anw , what are you doing here looking like Paris Hilton anyway ? -.- Well , I'm going to Singapore with my boyfiee :) , it is actually a last minute planning , so but my parents approved it . :D Wtf ? -_- , you got school lah . I loathe you -__________________________________-" hahaha , school comes later , anw , i'll be going until end of this week only can cover up . haha Still , we loathe you -_____________-"
so yeah , her flight is like 10 minutes , and my mum is like 5 minutes ? idk . hahaha :D but It was the greatest airport experience ever :) meeting two people I love the most in one morning :) hahaha , well , I hope my mum will come back safely from her journey and bring me some new TUXEDO :P hahaha , I hope hahaha xD anyway , thanks for the experience Zehan&Sara :) Really appreciate it :) anw , thats all for now mafias , wanna sambung tido . hahaha ;)
-CHUCKBASSONTHELOOSE!-*AWESOME!*
12:53 PM Baby, we'll be forever.
Saturday, February 21, 2009
This world is giving birth to full of sins
many people thought they're sooo AWESOME because of how many FRIENDS they have . haha , I am AWESOME because of how many TRUE FRIENDSI have and glad to have them . :B It's so hard to find true friends nowadays :) See the difference
In 3 years I studied in VI , I met Azir,Syazani and Syamim who are truly I want to be until the end , other VI boys ? macam haram . hahaha ,
In 6 years I studied in SKS , I met Aimi , Shaza , Suhaimie , Faris , QilaArmani , Admalina , Izhan , Izzati , FarahN , JulieN , FarahJ , Nisa and Nabila and still contact with them until now .
yeahh , :) the world is kinda coming to an end . true friends that you find in school are one in a million nowadays as you grow old.
"True friends sometimes have comas , but they will never have a fullstop" if you know what i mean :B
p/s : above are written of my true friends in my old school and my current school only :) if included my true friends from the other schools , list bapak panjang . tq xD
ChuckyWuckyBassy
7:33 PM Baby, we'll be forever.
Friday, February 20, 2009
an awesomeheartbreaking week
well , first of all . my rugby season is ending with a heartbreak . :( we lost to St.John 20 - 17 , and I ain't shy to admit that I cried . I really cried . well , it's really heartbreaking for me , for the others Idk , but me and Syamim cried . If we had beaten st.john , we already went to the Finals and even represent KL for MSSM . *sigh* what to do , we suck . anyway , the results are in .
VI vs Sri Tasik 68 - 0 VI vs St.John 17 - 20 VI vs SMSS 0 - 27
So yeah , we're fighting for the 3rd and 4th placing next week . we're fighting againts Sri Sentosa . haha , anyway on the bright side , me and Syamim and Dani decided to go to a Shisha place . and we found a new place and It was AWEEEEEEESOME ! :D Babylon . oh em gee ! damn best wehh :) we bought the AppleGrapeOrangeMint Flavour . and we we're HIGHHHHHHHHHH! haha :D here are some pictures :) we even hit on the waitress and her name was Tracy ! hahaha :D and one of my friends even asked for her phone number . pfft . babi tak malu . hahaha it was damn funny , we we're like .
USTracy
Tracyyyy Yes ? Hiii :) *laughing* hello
There's friends to help us to ease our pain :) And I am glad I have them by my side :D haha ,
chuckbass<3shisha :)
9:40 PM Baby, we'll be forever.
Sunday, February 15, 2009
fighting , hating , cursing
ohh , i think i haven't updated my blog for a while now :) haha , anw , on friday , VI vs Sri Tasik :D haha , and we won ! ole ole ole ! haha 60 - 0 :) now we're going to face St.John again on tuesday -.- anw , St.John fought Sri Tasik before and won 68 - 0 :O I bet they are training pretty hard -.- And my exams got postponed until 23rd of FEB ! hooray ! haha :D I am BUSY TO THE MAX this week -.- Rugby there , Rugby this . Pfft . What to do , If you want to have An AWESOME Life , You need to have an AWESOME Sacrifice :P so , i ain't going to Online until Saturday -.-
Ohh , V'day ? hahaha :D Loveslovesloves :P but for me , hatehatehate , morning dah gaduh dengan parents dah and I don't wanna talk about it -.- haha , anw , who's your valentine dates ? I sure don't have one :P *wink wink* hahahah :P
i gotta say , this is my v'date for the day :) everybody meet SharifahShaza :D
haha , oh yeah , she's AWESOME ! :D her school hosts a carnival that day on V'day , and she teman-ed me for the whole day . and then came , Haidar , Aimi , Suhaimie , Najmi :D we vain-ed , and then crap talk , and crap talk and then became horny for nothing . hahaha ! babi punya haidar ! hahaha , xD
okay now ,what did i do todayyy -_________-" I woke up at 8am , teman my mum jogging . oh em gee , damn mengantuk weh . oh yeah , I went partying with my another AWESOME cousins ! :D haha , just now , we we're walking to a playground nearby :) and yeah , we we're vaining , damnnn vain man . babi punya vain -.- haha , and then , suddenly , this biker rempit mamat mana sesat cari gaduh . they we're Peeweet-ing to me and my girl cousins . yes , they know i'm gay . hahaha ! we we're like
US[guys cousins]GIRLSREMPIT
Feeweeet ! Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee Oi Oi , Apa feeweet feeweet ni ? Berkenalan boleh ? (talking to the girls) Tak maluuu ! Gatal punya orang , blah laaa ! Woi , ko sibuk pehal . nak gaduh sini arh . Bak datang arh !!
then they all blah , we we're like singing . " Kamilah geng , geng , geng bas sekolah ! " LOL ! -______- damn annoying wehhh ! my cousins semua mcm . OMG . hahahah ! but they're AWESOME :D
try guessing , which one am I ? :)
that's all for today folks :) haha , let's hope that VI will win againts St.John this tuesday :DD
InsyaALLAH :) that's all for today , ChuckBass
10:27 PM Baby, we'll be forever.
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
I like girls , they like me ;
I wanna be faithful ; but I can't keep my hands out the cookie jar :)
Ohh , I haven't updated my blog since yesterday :) so here goes nothing :DD Well , I've been addicted to the Cookie Jar - Gym Class Heroes song :D It's AWESOME cause It's TRUE ! :D hahaha , anyway , the rugby schedule just arrived and guess who we are facing next week ? St.John =_______= I bet they are going to train like a mad man . -.- ok anyway , the schedule is like this .
VI vs Sri Tasik [13.2.2009] VI vs St.John [17.2.2009] VI vs ? (semi finals) [19.2.2009]
Let's hope we get into the Finals and even win the game @_@ INSYA ALLAH :) Anyway , BOTOL , the form 5 in VI that I always speak off . Just scored the winning goal againts TTDI -.- LOL , Amazing header man . He is very TALL I tell you =________= So VI went into the Finals ! OLE ! haha , anyway , that's all I wanna talk blog :) -I still can't keep my hands out the cookie jar:P-
10:05 PM Baby, we'll be forever.
Sunday, February 8, 2009
Tilting the hourglass ;
ohhh , i wish i was still a kid again :/ my parents are treating me like crap nowadays . pfft , especially my dad :/ i'm soooooo not in the mood for quite sometime truth be told :/ i had never finished my homework , and treated my juniors like shit everyday :/ and this year is the year I face the biggest enemy for form 3 , PMR - Pemusnah Masa Remaja and my sins are just getting bigger and bigger . I am panicked on what will happened after this world ends :/ Will I go to heaven or hell ? *sigh* Ohh , how I wish I could tilt the hourglass and rewind how it was used to be . Now , every time I walk pass my parents , they would say nothing and just gave me the evil eye . =________________________________= Huh , depressing , No ? If I could trade my rich for a happiness that would last until the end , I would :/ Ohh well , what to do , just face the reality , pfft .
this morning I stayed up until 4am :D and I had fun webcamming with Lydia :D haha , It was AWESOME :) Really :D we talked , vain-ing , making faces , and SING ! and also , met her lil bro :) her bro and lydia has the coolest name ! Jordin O.O omgwtfbbq ! and Lydia's name is Lydia Carlisa ! hahaha ! :D oh well , here's the picture we took :)
I had fun Lydia :) , I really did<3 p/s : I miss you too Jordin ;D
Haha , whatever it is , I still got my friends beside to face this depressing reality ;)
-Fauzan Trojan&Lydia Lolita :) -
4:21 PM Baby, we'll be forever.
Saturday, February 7, 2009
I don't wanna rock , DJ
katyperry ; i don't wanna rock , but you're making me feel so nice
This morning is a match between VI and St.John :D OMGWTFBBQ ! I am black-ier now ! T____________T but nevermind ! we won ! yippeee yaihoooo ! so like , the game started with U-18 first and they won like 22 - 0 :D One try by one of our form 4 , we call him , Abang Cipot , he is the fullback , catch the ball from VI try line and ran towards St.John's try line ! OH MY GOD ! He sidestep more than 6 players ! It's one of a hell TRY ! we we're like ,
It's A Try , It's A Try ; It's A GOOOOD TRY ! It's A Try , It's A Try ; It's a GOOOOD TRY !
hahaha , oh well , it was an AWESOME try :) cannot describe it , hahaha . Then it's the U-15 game :D I wasn't the captain anymore :/ And I wasn't feeling that Awesome anymore :/ but anyway , I tackled more than 10 players today ! hahaha :D Awesomeeeeeeeee ! but anyway , the game all started good lah , St.John forwards was like ! OH MY GOD ! DAMN BESAR WEHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH ! but , we managed to tackle them all :) except for the number 20 =______________= He is fast + babi laut + besar + WTF ! hahaha , 4 people couldn't tackle him ! LOL but It is still an Awesome game lah :)
Scores
VI vs St.John U18
22 - 0
VI vs St.John U15
17 - 7
Then I got home and I told my parents I wanted to go to Adma's BBQ Tonight . Then Suddenly My Parents was like scolding me . WTF ! Kalau tak boleh pergi , cakap je lah tak boleh pergi = = My Dad was like , " Asyik layan kehendak budak tu je " Bajet I didn't hear that he was saying that to my mum :/ Mann ! Even parkway drive tomorrow my parents scolded me . I bought the tickets already for crying out LOUD ! =_____________________= My parents are such a party pooper :/ pfft . =_____________________________________________________________= *sigh* hahaha :D anyway , that's all for today :) I hope VI will win MSSMKL this year :D and we will be in VI's HISTORY ! OH YEAH ! AWEESOMEEEEEEE ! chiao ! -motherchucker-
6:11 PM Baby, we'll be forever.
Thursday, February 5, 2009
Where did the sunshine go ?
take off your clothes and get on the floor
Omgwtfbbq ! :( You know what ? I got 3 functions clashing in the same date ! WTF ! And I cramp again during my training = =" at the same place ! WTF ! Why must they all be held on SATURDAY ! SATURDAY ! T____T anw , the functions are :-
1.PARKWAY DRIVE CONCERT LIVE IN KL :( 2.VI VS ST.JOHN RUGBY MSSMKL 3.ADMA'S BIRTHDAY BBQ BASH
The one I am most depressed is PARKWAY DRIVE D: , there's 99.99999% I couldn't Go T____T The parkway drive is around 2pm until 10pm D: And the rugby match probably around 4pm :( DAMN YOU WHOEVER ARRANGE THE MATCH FOR MSSMKL ! DANGGIT ! And I Already bought the Tickets :( I WANNA MOSH ! T____________________T Now I'm heartbroken :/ , I couldn't release my heartache I had for such a long time this saturday :( Dangg lahhhh = =" Still frustrated and still typing to this stupid blog . pfft . anyway , that's all for today .
-Don't you just love Nepotism ?-
7:51 PM Baby, we'll be forever.
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
It's Classy , Not Classic
Cigarettes + Neil Peart = AWESOMENESS !
i'm friggin' bored :/ i got cramp today during rugby training and it still hurts now :/ i survived the 2 hour maths tuition by just doing work work work and more work :/ i got homework like everyday and did not even finish once :/ i wish we can win the MSSMKL this year :/ i want to get out of VI ASAP :/ i am seriously afraid of PMR like 24/7 :/ i can surpass all the negativity that i listed above because . . . . i'm chuck bass :)
10:20 PM Baby, we'll be forever.
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
Depression is another word for Obsession
You don't know , even the great guitarists are frustrated about their guitars but NOT for this dude
Imagine , playing the guitar while singing . Not "More than Words" song or "Stand By Me" kind of song . But , metal songs , screaming , growling , pig squealing , and even singing but in a fast metal pace . Not everyone could do that right ? ;D The dude up there , Matt , is the guitarist from the band Bullet from My Valentine. And he taught me , even though life already taken his tonsils out , he still produce us good quality metal music. :) Rock On ! Matt , Rock On ! :)
falling in love too fast ? :/
Anyway , today is the start of school day since the 1 week long AWESOMEChinese New Year Holiday :) Oh yeahh ! I made everyone caught the AWESOME curse ! :) Including my cousins from Singapore ! :D *pleasecomebacksoontoKL* yeah , they're AWESOME ! :D Maybe the mafias also caught it too ? ;) especially you Aleeza :B . haha , today nothing special going on in school today , except , my rugby training just started ! T___________T OMGWTFBBQ ! Damn tired :/ And also , it was raining HEAVILY during our training . Our coach had to give us exhaustingsuicidalsuperduperawesome fitness just now because our MSSMKL game is next week =____________= . WTF man ! So yeah , I'll be busy training for this whole week including Saturday and Sunday , but Saturday I hope i'll be excused because of the Parkway Drive concert ;D Haha , A MUST GO CONCERT! Bababuyahhh ! haha :) Oh well , everything went well , and I just dropped off from the first team because I didn't come for training yesterday :/ , but , our coach said If I go to training for this whole week , I can play next week and also lead the team for the MSSMKL games = =" pfft. wish me luck then :/ anyway , after I arrived home just now , I was like sooooooooo down . My Guitarrrrrrrrr ! T_________T OH EM GEE . Still finding way to fix that stupid neck . haihhzz ! = =" Misery Monday , aiyoyoyo . but I cheered up a little bit after watching Russell Peters RedWhite and Brown ! ;D hahaha ! He's AWESOME ! you guys should check it out :) well , that's all for my blog todayyy .
DAMN ! That Motherchucker !
7:51 PM Baby, we'll be forever.
Monday, February 2, 2009
Bring It On Misery ,I have Oli Sykes with Me
Bring it On Misery ! Nothing can get pass through me .
Oh yeah ! Oh yeah ! Oh yeah ! :) AWESOME ! :D MISERY MONDAY IS ENDING AND IT's 11:53pm ! I'm So Hyper :) I Survived Misery Monday without thinking of killing myself ! :D haha , I got friends to help me and Oli Sykes :) His band helped alot ! Chelsea Smile , Prayer For Plagues , Medusa really helped :D I was moshing a little bit to their songs ! haha :) This is the ending chapter of another Misery day :) See you tomorrow ! :D
-I would also like to thank these people for chatting with me today:)-
Azraei
Ashne
SarahD
Zaim
Aleeza
Eishah
Aimanasaur
Haidar
NazaNoza
Adri
Damira
Zehan
You guys really cheered me up today :) anyway , where's azir ? o.o , i miss him = ="
oh and i just realized his new music video :B haha , OLI ROCKS MY WORLD ! and he's BRITISH ! OH MY GOD ! :O AWESOME ! :D
-Chuck Bass- Everybody Loves a Bad Boy
11:53 PM Baby, we'll be forever.
I want you , so badly Honey .
This dude told me that he wanted to die , so what the heck ? We all just shoot him . :)
Ohhh , 2nd day of February just keeps getting better and better . Many drama , wait ! I am the drama :D . hahaha , well , after posting my 2nd blog in the same day , i chatted with Azraei and the convo was like this . . . Fauzan : Dude I'm bored Azraei : Let's Webcam Fauzan : Okay *Invited Azraei to Webcam* Fauzan : Dude , where's your webcam ? = =" Azraei : I don't have a webcam . Fauzan : What ?! =____________= Azraei : Dude , I want to see you play your Ps3 man . Fauzan : What ? Why ? You only can see me play , you can't join in . Why you want to see me play the Ps3 ? Azraei : . . . cause . . . It's Fun . Fauzan : =______________________= Okayy . Azraei : Play WE man ! choose Arsenal vs Liverpool , TOP PLAYER ! you're going to lose man , El Zhar man , Islam ! you're so going to Lose ! Liverpool , the best team in the world . Fauzan : I haven't on the ps3 yet = =" So yeah , Azraei saw me play the through the webcam and at last , Arsenal won :) and he was like . Azraei : I hate you man , You suck man . Whatcha Laughing At ?
OMG AZRAEI ! that made my day ! XD haha , and i also taken a picture of this memorable moment :P
Azraei :) you suck , so does liverpool ! xD
ok then , back to my Bloggg . haha :Dso today , i chatted with Azraei , Ashne , Aiman , Damira and also Haidar .Then I webcammed with Damira = =" pfft . and she kept calling me gay . pfft , oh yeah ? IM Awesome :)haha , anw , then suddenly my dad came in with the Agama Folio to judge me with my attitude and all and he gave me 24 out of 40 marks ! wtf ?! thanks alot dad , how can I pass my agama PMR now = ="Suits yourself :/i was sooo frustrated with his way of giving marks , i think he doesn't even know me anymore :/then came the hard part , OH MY GOD ! my guitar ! T______Tyeah , like in the 2nd blog , my EPIPHONE LES PAUL CUSTOM guitar neck broken :/Thank god nobody knew about it , especially my parents :/Im going to send it to the nearest guitar workshop , ASAP ! In the meantime , I am camwhoring with it :Phaha , this is the pics XD Enjoy :)
6 more hours of before my my MISERY MONDAY ends :) hahaha , :DD i decided calling today MISERY MONDAY :)
Once you're a Bass , you can never go back .
5:38 PM Baby, we'll be forever.
Problems just keep on coming ;
"They told me that they had a rough day like almost everyday , how about you ?"
I just woke up today , posted my drum cover videos on my blog . Then , without any notice , i got scolded by my mum because I wanted to go to my rugby training :/ pfft , okay lah , i can handle it . Then I decided to play drums , after i play around 2 songs , my drumstick patah . like what the hell ! Then I played with Zaim's drumstick , sorry zaim :P Then , I decided to do a cover on Sweet Child O' Mine , I moved the amplifier , BAM ! Guitar Putih jatuh , and guess what ? Neck Patah ! WTF ! Is this like what ? Karma or Hari Wilayah Perkebumian ? My White Guitar's Neck like Broken Into Half ! LIKE HELL ! OMG !
Hell Hell Hell , Problems just keep on coming ehh ? and it's only around half of the day , :/ I guess what will be coming towards me again until midnight . pfft .
People say Life is just like a wheel , you have your ups and downs . Maybe my Life is just like a broken wheel , i have no ups and only have downs. DAMN ! That Motherchucker!
12:05 PM Baby, we'll be forever.
1st Step of Becoming Like Travis Barker
Travis Landon Barker my lifetime idol
So , as you can see , I idolized the dude up there , he is one hell of a drummer ! And to become like him , i played my drums like almost everyday :D , in the month of January , I covered 4 songs i think , and I'm going to post it in here :) I kinda suck in these videos , butwhat the heck , Well , it's a small step in becoming a professional drummer :)
That's What You Get - Paramore
Crushcrushcrush - Paramore (remake)
Beat It - Fall Out Boy (ft.John Mayer)
I'm Chuck Bass
10:43 AM Baby, we'll be forever.
Sunday, February 1, 2009
Human Beings = ="
I never thought that life would be exactly like in Gossip Girl
first , I am Chuck Bass , I went to sunway lagoon on saturday and had fun and all . Then I went to sleepover at my so called friend's house , let's call him Nate Archibald , and my bestfriend which I trust joined me , and let's call him Dan Humphrey . So we had fun and all , swimming , vain-ning and all that crap . Then I suddenly talked about my crush , let's call her , Serena van der Woodsen . I told them about her , every detail about her and I really like her . Nate got overexcited that he has the same taste of style . Nate emo-ed about Serena and beg me to give her number and all but I refused . Suddenly , Nate talked to her bestfriend or idk , maybe more than a bestfriend , Blair Waldorf , and we also joined and webcam-ed with her and all . Then , I took her number just because want to keep in touch . Then Nate get emo-ed and accusing me that I wanted to take Blair Waldorf and all . Sorry Nate , I already broken up with someone for crying out loud ! = =" Why would i want to find another girl so fast ? Stupidass = =" Then , Nate went over the gossip girl blog and search every detail he could find about Serena and call her and get to know her . He even wanted to kick my ass if I didn't tell him about Serena . WTF NATE ?! Dan Humphrey was telling Nate to stop what he is doing but Nate is such a thick headed person , so what to do . I guess , every human beings is just the same huh ? Because of some hot girl , they broke their relationship for the sake of some hot GIRL ? I ain't sad because of you liking her Nate , it's because how you made me realized , NOBODY , i mean NOBODY CAN BE TRUSTED in this CRUEL DAMN STUPIDASS WORLD .